| ****Must Read****...You'll Laugh..I Swear!!!! |
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| 09:37pm 11/08/2004 |
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THIS IS FOR ALL YOU STUPID SCENE ASSHOLES
The Typical Scene Boy:
Hi my name is Stupid Fucking Poser. I'm really insecure so I'm gonna dye my hair black and grow it long so it covers my face because I'm so fucking ugly that no one would like me if it wasn't hidden. And I love following the crowd so I buy girl jeans that don't fit my disgusting body and my small dick is pressed tight against the zipper for all the 14 year old girls to see. God I’m SO SPECIAL AND UNIQUE.
My best friend is my flat iron and pomade.
I don’t eat carbs but I like The Faint and underage drinking.
My favorite activity is shopping for Converse and trying not to let my pretend girlfriend know that I’m a fucking faggot.
And every time I go to clubs I have to be REALLY wasted and completely drunk because I secretly have NO personality and all my friends really HATE ME because all I ever do it make out with random ugly kids who are really 15 but somehow got into the club.. and of course I make out with boys that look EXACTLY like me because its cool to pretend I’m something I’m not. When I go to Club 82, I pay $8 to sit outside of a patio and smoke other people’s cigarettes and talk shit about everyone that has their back turned to me.
When I finally decide to dance to all those lame 80’s songs, I try to dance but really I'm just having a fucking seizure to look cool, even though it never works. I swing my arms in the air and shuffle my feet like I have fucking Parkinson’s.. and I always pick the dumbest sluttiest girl to grind my crotch against. HEHE.
Sound familiar?
Yeah kill yourself before someone else does.
The Typical Scene Girl:
Hey everyone, is my hair dyed 5 different colors and cut at different angles? Are you sure my neon plastic earrings match my high heels and bra straps because I would CRY if I didn’t fit in with every other whore I know. Should we only talk about boys and clothes and stuff? LIKE OMG ok.
I like vertical stripes and pony tails. I love leg warmers and anything asymmetrical. I wear shirts with only one sleeve and poke-dot mini skirts so you can see my vagina when I try and dance to the Cure.
Sometimes I’ll dye my hair one bright color in front or in the back so you notice me more but really I’m just trying to look cool so everyone stares and points. Oh wait it doesn't work because I’m just a stupid cunt with no style. *twirls hair*
And when I date guys or make out with them: they HAVE to wear eyeliner and tight t-shirts. They HAVE to have more then 1000 friends on My Space and drive a car past the year 2000 because that’s all that matters. No one cares about feelings, just fuck me in my plastic asshole and tell me how cute I am when my lipstick rubs off on your penis. *pops gum*
I live in Orange County and I’m still in high school but somehow I got a fake ID so I’m SO awesome!! My favorite hang out is Club Bang where I can dance in front of all my internet friends and show how dumb I am. I’m better then everyone else because I know the lyrics to EVERY retarded song played and I can even shake it like one of those trolls in a Lil’ Jon music video.
But whatever, I’ll just show my tits and everyone will be ok.
*stolen from Jeffree Starr,World Famous Asshole And A Fucking Legend <3 |
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(11 Overdoses | Snort A Line) |
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| ::::Fuck you cunt, Im Amazing:::: |
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| 11:57am 10/08/2004 |
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mood:  tired
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I'm a girl who is trapped in time,A girl who is slowly dissapearing,Falling away into the distant background. Someday i will leave,and you wont even relise im missing.
Im a girl in a picture posted on some ego boosting stupid website,Photoshopped and edited so you wont see the truth,you wont see me.Everytime you look at the picture, maybe you'll remember who she was,But with everyday that goes by, the smiles and pretty blue eyes will slowly fade,and eventually you wont remember anything.
And if i was to fall,To give into the teen suicide drama that swallows a teens life,I cant help but wonder will anyone save me? Would any of you care enough to keep me alive.But I know that YES they would, maybe not because they love me that much that they would sacrifice themselves to keep me alive, but because its the right thing to do.This isnt real caring.It's you not wanting to live with the guilt,that suicide took place, and you turned your back on it.
And i just remembered..I dont give a fuck.
Everything about me is real...and im perfect.
Fuck you Bitch..(you know who you are)
Im amazing. |
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| Fuck You..I probably hate you anyway. |
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| 02:42pm 09/08/2004 |
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mood:  accomplished music: Hanoi Rocks-Strung Out.
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1-Dont tell me that i have a pretty face that im ruining with make-up and piercings.
2-Dont tell me that i need to wear colour.
3-Dont tell me you know how i feel.
4-Dont pretend that you like me.
5-Dont attempt to be my friend.
6-Dont ask me for favours.
7-Dont tell me it makes you sad to see what i do to myself.
8-Dont expect me to care about how you feel.
9-Dont approach me in public.
10-I dont want to hear about how you want to kill yourself.
11-I dont care that you think Marilyn Manson is god.
12-No, I dont want to see that movie with you.
13-Do it yourself.
14-Stop telling me everthing I dont care about.
15-Dont lie to me.
16-Do all the drugs you want, I dont give a shit.
17-Get some fucking morals.
18-Kill yourself, and stop your suicide lies.
19-No, we dont "fit" and arent "meant for each other"
20-Do..Be a real person.
*BANG*
Please shut the fuck up.
*BANG*
Yes, I do mean it.
*BANG*
Im still amazing, not matter how hard you try to tell me im not.
*BANG*
Have you figured it out yet?...cunt.
Lets not forget this is the INTERNET.This is just an idea but maybe some of you should sign off msn,look out into the REAL world (where people aren't edited and photoshopped) Then relise that you wont have your INTERNET FAKE PERSONAS to tell you how cool you are because you edited a picture of you with your shirt off.
Im the same online and off, and whats that?? SO ARE YOU! *wrong*
Dont fucking talk to me unless your a real person.
-Dont get offended...its just a website- |
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| I Would Walk 500 Miles..(who am i kidding..no i wouldnt) |
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| 12:52pm 05/08/2004 |
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mood:  cheerful music: 5OO Miles - Less Than Jake
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Well yesterday was crumby, i woke up in probably one of the worst depressed states ive had for awhile,but i pulled through fine i guess you could say.I think the thing thats more troubling is that i had no reason to be depressed everything is prety much okay.Sure there are a couple of things that could be better, but i guess im just going to have to make do for now.
Ive been dreaming a lot lately, pleasant little dreams about nice things,opposed to what i usually dream.
22 days until im 18 *grin*
Ive been getting into some really sad and lame emo/punk lately, its annoying my metalhead housemates extremely, but i dont mind, i have a feeling thats why the music is so appealing.
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| And You Might Its Self Destructive.. |
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| 02:47pm 03/08/2004 |
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mood: tired music: Bad Habit-Dresden Dolls
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Another day i didnt go to school, reasons i cant be bothered explaining.Im tired again, I went to bed at 9pm last night and woke up at 7am, now its almost 3pm and i can barely keep my eyes open.
Im in another bad mood, im losing interest in conversation, im over everything, all i want to do is hide away in my room all day, its so unlike me to be so lifeless.
I was invited to a party on Saturday night, not sure if im going to go, I dont really know the people who will be going,and the person who invited me goes to my school, i dislike socialising with people from school, Thats probably why i only have one friend there that i actually bother with.
Still Miss certain people, Still sad,pathetic and depressed as all fuck..
*blah*
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| Leave.. |
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| 03:32am 31/07/2004 |
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mood:  lonely music: --------------
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I dont know whats happening and im not entirely sure i want to.My existence has turned into a void of nothingness,blank and unlively.There are so many other things i could be doing, yet i waste time, on nothing.Ive become lazy,self indulgent and fat.I sit and make fun of others when i am possibly worse then they are.I really am, not a nice person.
My friends like to talk up how great i am, and look to me as a source, an example.When I have done terrible things, im rude, and am in constant denial about who I am.I lie and I cheat to make myself more appealing to others.I lie to both of my parents constantly, although i have managed to lose my father forever as a cause.
I am not proud of the things i do, yet i fall further and further into this rut.Im confused and cant find any other way out besides more lies,which confuse me even more.
Im trying so hard not to go back to doing the things i use to, but as self damaging as it was I was no where near as confused as I am now, feeling like theres nothing.
I regret everything that ive done to people,a simple apology will not help the situation by any means, there is nothing i can do to get the one person back in my life that i depended on for so much, I miss him and i love him more then anything else I have.He's the reason im here, the reason im alive, yet I cant be with him.
Whinging here solves nothing, and although i know he wont read this, I guess its something i have to say one way or another..
I Love My Dad. |
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| So Motherfucking Glamourous! |
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| 03:16pm 29/07/2004 |
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mood:  confused music: this town-Jack Off Jill/Korn
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Well, i missed school, again..surprise sur-fucking-prise.We had a free first and second period so didnt have to go in until about 10-30 we we're meant to get the train at around 10-16 kat walks in my room at 10-10 to a half dead sara laying down.I did attempt to get ready but i have the flu and its a total fuckhead.I think i have a chest infection or something.My lungs are kinda screwed.
Im starting to miss particular people this week, Its hard for me to understand why im missing them considering the situation, but its hurting not being able to be with them.
Ive spent my day downloading a whole lot of bullshit, i wish kat would wake up, i need a friend, or a hug..or something..
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| We're all doomed damn it! |
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| 05:38pm 28/07/2004 |
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mood:  crappy music: wild child - Iggy Pop
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Haha well today was boring as all fuck, I went to school for about 5 minutes the came home, did a little shopping, came on the net, watched some t.v..came back online..hahah yeh thats my day.
for some reason im depressed as all fuck..
*sigh*
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| Please Excuse Her For The Day,Its Just The Way The Medication Makes Her. |
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| 06:12pm 26/07/2004 |
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mood: confused music: The Perfect Drug-NIN
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I went to bed at 8-30 last night and woke up at 10-30, by the time i sat around on my ass, then eventually got ready and went to school, i made it to last period.I had to meet my mum after school to grab some shit off her, so i did that, then kat and I went over to her mums to say howdy,we watched her brothers wedding video ^_^.Then came home at around 5ish..i had chicken soup..watched jerry springer..came on msn.
I heard these girls having a conversation about me and Kat in class today, they dont know how good my hearing *grin* Then i heard them say that "the one with the red hair is the weird one"...hmm im the one with red hair.The strange thing is i dont even know their names yet they seem to know me..assholes.
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| SeX dRuGs AnD rOcK n RoLl |
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| 07:31pm 25/07/2004 |
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mood: tired music: Friends-Backyard babies
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well last night was fun, it was saturday, i was bored, and things arent going right so of course im going to drink..like usually.Except for once i found my limit I drank..and drank and drank some fucking more,then took some _____________
Its not a bad thing and im meant to have them just not that many and certainly not with alcohol.So i threw up..a lot and passed out.
I woke up at about 2am wanting to drink more, but someone hid it and i couldnt fucking find it...so fucking pissed off.
Ive been listening to 70s music and Nirvana today, i feel so dirty, like im some nasty hippy in need of a shower.
I had one this morning..time for another.
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| The Next Installment, |
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| 11:04pm 22/07/2004 |
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mood:  content music: Growing On Me- The Darkness
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I Have-
Red Hair,
Blue eyes,
No common sense,
One Brother and one sister i dont see often enough,
two flatmates,
One Cat named Zimmy,
Taste,Style and Class (hahah)
Minimal people i would call my friends,
A mobile phone,
A perverted mind,
An addiction to "the Real World",
No idea what im going to do once i finish school,
A desire to be more then i know i ever will be,
Dreams of travelling the world,
A crush,
Love for the mother i hate most of the time,
Hunger pains,
The nothing else to say, but i wont stop talking,
A comfy bedroom, safe and secure,
Nothing worth talking about..
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| If You Ever Cared At All... |
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| 12:30am 22/07/2004 |
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mood:  indescribable music: fuck on cocaine-dj youri
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I-
Am selfish,discontented and intense.
Have no direction in life.
like the colour pink.
adore my close friends, even though i rarely show it.
Probably lie to you more then i tell the truth.
Am pathetic in that i like hugs and kisses and holding hands.
Never let relationships last.
Am addicted to Tropical fruit juice.
Think that we should be closer then what we are.
Like the comfort i find in my home environment.
Wont do things i dont want to.
Am moody, foul mouthed, and forceful.
Was born in the wrong year (by about ten years)
Find it hard to say "I Love You"
Have had my heart stolen, broken, and mended.
Know what you think about me (atleast i think i do) (Im wrong)
Lost my virginity at 16.
Had the cliche "Bad Childhood"
Cry more then i let you know.
Want To Be In Love.
Know im ugly and i know you see it too.
Im afraid of the dark..still.
Cried the first day my dad left, i still cry now because he's left me again.
Own c.ds that i can listen to over and over again without them getting boring.
Adore Brian Molko.
Like to drink.
Have been known to take drugs.
Am a clinically certified "manic depression"
Im the youngest child.
Am hell in high heels.
Like Kurt Cobain and Courtney Love even though you dont.
Tried to kill myself in December.
Love Katrina, she is my closest friend..thank you
Hate losing people I Love.
Am confused about my sexuality.
Remember when my mum said she wished she never had me
Am Angry,Mopey,Pathetic and Disillusioned when it comes to most things.
Hate the way you make me feel.
Like lipstick.
Can't wait to have kiddies..one day..not now.
Want to see the murderdolls in concert.
Must meet Acey Slade.
Think im going to be bald by 30.
Believe in destiny.
Like to fall asleep in his arms.
Find dancing to be the best anti depressant.
Like the girls from Cherryfuck magazine..yeaaaah bitches!
Am a motherfucking rockstar!
Wont trust you, so dont even attempt it.
Am against everything you stand for.
Hate "rebels".
Am A Rebel.
Probably dont find you important.
Will not turn out like my mother.
Resent the day my mum remarried.
Hate the man that use to bash my mum and sister.
Remember the nights i slept in parks because my mum was too afraid to go home.
Tried to kill my cousin when i was ten.
Almost died when i was 12.
Get to emotional over little things.
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| +Pussy Liquor+ |
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| 03:29pm 20/07/2004 |
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mood:  amused music: Darkness Surrounds-Avenged Sevenfold
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Sooo bored, I woke up at 2pm..so much for school ^_^.Theres really nothing to do today except for all the things ive been putting off for so long.And that probably wont get done today either.
I went to school yesterday and lasted one period before i left, i think as soon as we walked in the school someone yelled out "freaks" and you know what?
FUCK YOU ALL BECAUSE IM AMAZING!!
tootles. |
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| 08:47pm 15/07/2004 |
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mood:  ditzy music: hey baby-no doubt
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Well we went to Broadmeadow today to get Kat pierced, she was meant to get both sides of her nose done but she only got one and her lip.She was fairly wasted by the time she got there so was I, but that meant i could talked to Randy and Con a lot more...hmm things actually went a lot better today then they did before..maybe i jumped to conclusions??
Hmm school starts again on Monday *sigh* and i have no idea how im going to fit everything together, my life is getting busy and i dont like that.Miss lazy doesn't like stress.
I should be getting both sides of my lip pierced next week and dying my hair back to black, the bleaching and pink-a-nizing is destroying my hair, so its back to black and grow it out...like i always say.
Tootles Chickens!!
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| -Sedated Diva- |
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| 01:02am 13/07/2004 |
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mood: hopeful music: American Made Jack Off Jill
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Ahh i havent updated this for awhile, not that anyone bothers to read it but well imma do it anyway.I have anew piercing its on the right side of my lip...i dont think im going to keep it, it feels strange.I just cleaned up my room cause my mumsy is bringing up my old double bed mattress, that they broke the bed that it belonged to *sigh* they shall just have to buy me a new one.
Well ive been in newcastle for three days or something like that with my boy, who is still my boy, hopefully this will go better then anything else ive ever attempted.Probably not though, imma fuck this up like everything else..
Optimisstic Me.
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| 09:33pm 05/07/2004 |
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mood: contemplative music: American Made-Jack Off Jill
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Well everythings pretty much boring, what great holidays im going to have.I stay up all night and then sleep all day to just repeat everything again even though it bored the shit out of me..makes sense right?
Ugh well Randal's coming back from Coffs on thursday or friday, not to sure which day yet, *excited* well excited and ugh nervous at the same time..but moving right along...
im bored again..everything is so boring.My mums coming up tomorrow to pick up my skirt which she has to fix..and my shoes..that shes putting into fix because I snapped the heel on HER driveway because of where SHE parked the car...okay so maybe it was my fault but still...mum will fix them...
um yeah thats it.
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| 08:11am 01/07/2004 |
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mood:  bouncy music: cant stop smoking-alien sex fiend
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hmmm its 8-11am i havent been to sleep yet and im not entirely sure when and if i am.I should really be at school today but i cant be fucked so i declare this school holidays *woot*. Um hmmm tomorrow night im meant to be going to a party OR seeing Brendan at Blink..I hate Blink so much already and ive only been once.So i think the party options going to win.
Im in a fairly good mood this morning for about three reasons, none of which i really want to mention.But they are all so good..they make me feel all warm and fuzzy.
Okay well thats about it from me.
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| The Sickness |
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| 02:44pm 28/06/2004 |
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mood:  lethargic music: Play With Me-I.C.P
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Well today has been completely crap, i woke up in one of the worst moods.I got up around 11 and went to centrewank with Weenish,the line was out the door and i already felt like crap so standing around in a line for three hours would only piss me off further.I talked Kat into leaving so we came home,sat around for a bit and then went to hungry jacks for a grilled chicken burger thing, and a sundae...now i feel completely sick, my head hurts, i have a blocked nose..and i keep coughing and sneezing..fuck the flu.
and this is my official thank you to *Josh* for the lovely conversation we had on saturday night, i wasnt in the best mood but you made me smile..hehe im not sure if you'll read this, and if you do...i feel silly.
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| 04:51am 28/06/2004 |
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Last Cigarette: Can't Remember
Last Kiss: Friday Night
Last Cry: Friday Night
Last Library Book Checked Out: Pandora-Anne rice
Last Movie Seen In a Theatre: I cant remember But i did go with Cooper And Pierce
Last Book Read: People Might Hear You-Robin Klein
Last Cuss Word Uttered: Cunt
Last Beverage Drank: coffee
Last Food Consumed: Noodles
Last Phone Call: Randal
Last TV Show Watched: I wathced 8 mile on t.v
Last Time Showered: Tonight
Last Shoes Worn: Knee high boots
Last CD Played: Placebo
Last Soda Drank:Coke
Last Thing Written: "coke"
Last Key Used: E
Last Words Spoken: "goodnight"
Last Sleep: Last night
Last IM: ahh not sure
Last Ice Cream Eaten: Vanilla
Last Time Wanting to Die: Few Months ago
Last Lipstick: Pink
Last Time Dancing:Friday night
Last Show Attended: Placebo
Last Big Car Ride: awhile ago
Last thing you smelled: coffee
Last Annoyance: constantly
Last Disappointment: Friday night
Last Time Scolded: Saturday morning
Last Shirt Worn: "Team Satan"
Last Web Site Visited: Errm livejournal
Last song you listened to: Cant stop smoking-Alien Sex Fiend
Last movie you watched: 8 mile
Watch it with anyone?: No
Last time you went to the mall: Ummm thursday
Last person you wished you could "do": Pffft
Last person you missed: Brendon *sigh*
Last CD you Bought: eeek i havent bought one for awhile
Last beautiful thing you saw: My Cat sleeping
Last lyric stuck in your head: "I know what to do and i do it well" |
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| 08:50pm 27/06/2004 |
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mood: drained music: Miss Jackson-outcast
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Ugh! so bored, theres fuck all to do, i just cleaned my room, which is always exciting..not.Today i did nothing i sat at home on msn...great life aye?
I have school tomorrow which means i have to deal with the rumours that apparently started on thrusday when i left the school in an ambulance..class and style all the way.Erm all jokes aside apparently there drug overdose and suicide rumours..if i was going to do either of those things i sure as hell wouldnt do them at school.
Meh sigh...nothing
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| 12:04pm 26/06/2004 |
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mood: sad music: World So Cold-Mudvayne
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Well i went to Blink, the night seemed to be going okay, on the way down on the train, we played a silly little "game" to see who could finish a bottle of passion pop first *shudder* its possibly one of the foulest things ive tasted in my life, but it hits ya.So everything was good, we we're all pretty wasted by the time we got to Blink.SO i saw some people i knew but got rather depressed so drank more..always a good idea..not.
So i was pretty much gone, the bouncer im pretty sure was trying to hit on me..so i ran back into the club in search of my mates..no luck.SO i sat with this random bunch of Insane Clown Posse fans, and within half an hour had my tongue down some guys throat..great fucking work Sara.All the time i was looking for Brandon..i really thought he was going..apparently not though.After more drinking and getting even more so depressed my mates said it was time to leave.So we made the 1-47 train home...we got there i sat down and burst into tears for the next 2 hours all over a guy thats hurt me twice now...and i'll probably cry again..ahh the patheticness of me. |
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| 12:27pm 22/06/2004 |
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mood:  blank music: Torn-Creed
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Well i went to school, despite trying to use all the excuses in the world to Weenish as to why i shouldn't go.But it was only one period of E.E.C.So i went to school, did the work i was meant to.Then went shopping with Weenish.I dont have any money on tuesday so Weenish bought me this Red and Black Tartan,Pleated skirt.I have to pay her back on Tuesday when i get paid.So after shopping we started to walk home and on the way this druggo chick was staring at me so i stared back then shook my head, and laughed.Then she started with the whole "come back here and say something" bullshit, So many people seem to have smart ass remarks to make, lucky for them im generally to self involved to be listening to anyone else but myself.
Some person just added me to msn they seem to know a lot about me, yet when i ask who they are they say "you dont know me", Honestly its not a day to play games, Im hoping they go away before i get grumpy.
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| 04:00pm 20/06/2004 |
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mood: ditzy music: God Save Us-ILL NINO
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So my weekend was me and my mums watching movies, On friday alone i watched around four..Look whos talking now,The money pit,The Deliquents and Point Break.Saturday i did pretty much the same i watched Teen Wolf and Dirty Dancing, then i watced Cocktails late saturday night with my mum, she swore shed only watch half an hour, but Tom Cruise Held her attention for the whole movie.
Today i woke up to my sister throwing her 10 week old puppy on me *sigh* I watched the Placebo and Mudvayne D.v.D's then the Wizard Of Oz...then my mum drove me home.
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| Doom |
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| 11:34am 18/06/2004 |
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mood: good music: Thanks For Nothing-Dope
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Well today im going to my mums *sighs* i wont be around until sunday, to anyone who reads this or even gives a shit.So i hope y'all have fun doing whatever it is you do, i know i will, my mums barely going to be there so it will just be me having some nice relaxation time do fuck around and do shit all.
Im dying my hair bright pink again right now, i have a bright pink hand because we have no gloves left...doom
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| Shit..Absolute Shit. |
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| 02:35pm 17/06/2004 |
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mood:  depressed
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Okay so this is going to be me having a big winge over one of the most stupid things imaginable...a boy.SO basically a guy i thought was one of the most excellent people i know turned into one of the most disgusting i know.I guess it seemed to good to be true, i mean who is just going to be a nice guy,that is so unbelieveably sweet to me...ugh no one i guess. *sighs*
winge winge, bitch bitch
So today i woke up in a bad and slightly upset mood to due something i dont feel like discussing, so i got dressed and went down to the shops to meet Weenish and Steveian, we had lunch, we shopped, we came home.
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What's your first name? Sara
Middle name? Elizabeth
Nicknames? Maggot,Jeordie,Chicken,Sars,Miss Muffet,Squirt,Kiddo
Zodiac Sign? Virgo
Gender? Female
Birthday and age? 27-8-86.....17
Where do you live? Gosford/Wyoming
Do you have a boy/girlfriend? No.
If so what's her/his name? --------
Have you ever been in love? Perhaps.
What's your favourite colour? Neon Green,Neon Pink,Purple,Black And Red.
Sibling(s) (names/ages)?Scott-30 Kelly-24
Right Handed or Left Handed: Left
Hair Length: Short And Spikey
Light/Tan/Dark: Light
Small/Medium/Large Eyes: Normal I pressume
Do you have any piercing, or want any? Yes,Tongue,Lip,Septum and Ears.
Do you have a tattoo or want one? Its in consideration
Where do you shop at the most? In a shop
What colour is your hair? bluey Green
What colour are your eyes? Blue with a dash of green
How tall are you? 5'9
What kind of music do you like? Ghoul Rock,Glam Metal,Old School Punk,Rock,Alternative,Industrial,Death Metal,
Who are your best friends? Sometimes i wonder
Who are your friends online? I dont know
Who could you tell almost anything to? *ZIM*
Do you like to shop? If i have money
What sports do you play? heh...moshing? lol
What are you most scared of? Everything
What is your favorite animal? Cats
Favorite music video: The Wall..heh does that count?
How many phones do you have in your house? 1
How many TV's do you have in your house? 3
What are your favorite foods? Veggies!
Do you look like anyone famous? Fuck No
Do you believe in ghosts? No.
Do you think Brad Pitt is attractive? Back in the day Perhaps.
Who is the most attractive person you know? ummmm?
Are you a virgin? No.
What are you listening to right now? Nothing
Who are you talking to right now? No one
What time is it? 5-27 pm
What's your favourite candy? Period Discharged Tampons,
Whats your favorite saying or quote? "much Doom Indeed"
Do you have your own phone line? Heh No,
Have you ever kissed someone of the opposite sex? Yes
Favorite shoes? Doc Martins,Platforms,Chuck Taylors
What's your favorite drink? Bundy Rum,Vanilla Coke
What's your favorite soda? Vanilla Coke
What things do you say a lot? "doom" "cunt"
What kind of car do you have or what is your favorite car? I couldnt give a shit
Who is the coolest person in the world? Mr Slade.
Do you think you're weird or funny? I could be,
What stores do you shop at? India Foxx,
For Girls: Thong or Bikini? Whatever tickles your pickle
For Boys: Boxers or Briefs? whatever blows there skirt up
Who was the last person you called? Lee.
Where do you wanna get married? The rainforest
If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be? pretty much everything
Have you ever tried to kill yourself? ---------------------------------
Do you enjoy filling all this stuff out? no
What is your favorite fast food restaurant? Oportos
Favorite chips: Hot chips hehe
Do you have a pool? Nope
Do you have a spa? as above
What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? eeek! that there completely different to myself
What are you addicted to? Nothing
Do you like jewelry? yesem
Who do you wish you were? A placenta.
Who has it easier, guys or girls? Depends
What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? eeeeek i have no idea
What’s your favorite restaurant? Some classy french restraunt that i would feel unbelieveably uncomfortable in
Last time you swam in a pool? i cant fuckin remember
Have you ever been in a school play? yes
Type of music you dislike most? Repeatative dance
Are you registered to vote? No
Do you have cable? Indeed
Have you ever ridden on a moped? not that i know of
Ever prank call anybody? Hehehe all the time
Ever get a parking ticket? i cant drive
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? Yes to both
Furthest place you ever traveled? Eeeek..queensland lol
Do you have a garden? overgrown bushes and shrubs
What’s your favorite comic strip? JTHM
Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? yes i believe i do
Have you ever smoked peanut shells? No but the idea is interesting
Have you ever been in a beauty pageant? No
Orange Juice or apple? Apple
Do you know how to pump your own gas? I suppose i could
Ever order an article from an infomercial? Unlikely
Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work? Yes
Last thing you bought at a pharmacy? Strawberry Flavoured tampons
Ever thrown up in public? Yes.
Can ex’s be friends? Yes
Who was the last person you visited in a Hospital? A family friend
Did you have a lot of hair when you were a baby?hehe NO i was cute as a button
What message is on your answering machine? I dont have one
What’s your all time favorite Saturday Night Live skit or character? WOuldnt know
What was the name of your first pet? Lightning
What is in your wallet? erm money, cards, photos,A tripp eisen guitar pic,and a razor blade.
Favorite thing to do before bedtime? Find *ZIM*
What is one thing you are grateful for today?---------------------------
What is the first concert you ever went to? Creed *coughs*
Do you sneak out of the house at night? No i walk out the front door when i please.
Do you get along with your mum? Unlikely
Would you rather be short or tall? Tall
Do you like to dance? Of course!
Are you online a lot? Not really
Do you like playing pranks on people? hehe yes
What's the stupidest thing you have ever done? this fucking quiz!!!! |
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| 05:07pm 16/06/2004 |
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Gah today i had to go to school, that was about as interesting as a cats ass. I sort of ducked out early and went strolling around at the shops, i didnt find much interest there either.Eventually my mum turned up to give me..something..what it was escapes me now *sigh*.I guess all in all ive had a shitty day, and im so damn tired i wish i had something to do, someone to talk to who wasnt on of the annoyances im doomed to associate myself with on a day to day basis.
And if i continue writing here all i say will seem like a weird ass kid having another winge. So i'll forget it.
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| 12:56pm 14/06/2004 |
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mood: crappy music: Rock Horror Picture Show Soundtrack
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Well i just woke up a little while ago, damn public holidays theres fuck all to do, i tried calling some people last night, I missed talking to Luna cause he was having a shower, i spoke to my cousin who isnt pregnant anymore apperntly it was a false alarm.Erm oh and i talked to Brendan, who hopefully is going to turn up to BLink on the 25th for Tripp Eisens birthday tribute.Well after that i pretty much went to sleep, that was fun.*smirk*
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| 12:09pm 13/06/2004 |
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mood: cheerful music: wannabe-spice girls.
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Gah so im awake, im giddy and just scared Weenish by jumping around the house like a crazed weirdo.Went to Die Maschine last night, Weenish passed out on the table thing and steve didnt seem to move.I met those people i had to meet and there all super great.I think i made a fairly bad impression, i got rather trashed, it comes down to being nervous *smirk*.There we're random people hugging me, i must of met them at some point.We have to make Frank a shirt for his gf that says "be reasonable, do it my way" we should have that by the next scourge i expect.
Oh well i dont have much else to say, im considering going to blink tonight but i doubt i do that,
Heres to hoping i still have people to talk to on my msn and they dont all block me.
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| 12:21am 12/06/2004 |
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Eekk well today was interesting, i woke up then Weenish and me went to newcastle to meet up with one of her friends who just completed this piercins course.I decided to get a Septum piercing, onlycost me $10..the chick needed it for her portfolio anyway *smirk*
Im rather tired, tomorrow night Weenish,Stevian, and perhaps Ceejay, and Me of course are heading to Die Maschine,that should be interesting,
Anyfuck im too tired and have to get some sleep.
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| 03:20pm 08/06/2004 |
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Second day of school, usually i would of iven in by now, but i actually dragged my fat lazy ass out of bed and went to school.It wasnt to bad, biology was fairly crap, but we're getting Mars Bar Slice soon,so i think i should keep attending.*smirk*
Hmmm saw Matt at recess had to give him my manson dvd, and two cd's, erm thats about it, the rest of the school day was fairly useless.
On the way to the station Weenish, Matt and I decided to get the lift (we always do that, not much of a decision really) so the bastard stops! about half way up, i naturally paniced, i could think of nothing worse then being stuck in a lift with Matt,lucky enough the shitty machine started again.
Weenish and I went shopping this afternoon this clothes store in Gosord is closing down and everything was really cheap *tight ass* So i got this really snazzy neon green top, which i shall wear to die maschine *grins*
Well thats my day, hope it interests somebody..or something..
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| 11:36pm 06/06/2004 |
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mood:  intimidated music: I touch myself-the diviynals.
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Okay so im shit, the details im not going to bother putting in a silly online journal, mainly im saving myself embarressment.
fuck me dead i have school tomorrow and i have to go before Harrison has a bursts a blood vessel *giggles*
Gah tuesdays another day of school.
Wednesday im not going cause its the sports carnival thing and thats really not my stlye.
Thursday i have to see my psychiatrist and go shopping.
Friday i may be taking the day off to go shopping for some new clothes!
Saturday is Die Maschine,
And Sunday is my sleep day.
I'll write more later i feel so shit.
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| The Story Of My Broken Heart. |
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| 06:24pm 05/06/2004 |
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mood: blank music: Cherry Pie ( I need a freak)-ICP.
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Holy Hellbags i am bored to shit, Ive done shit all today, and i mean that, i did nothing, i got out of bed, dragged a blanket to the sofa, laid down and watched Reality Bites, i love that movie, come to think of it i love most of Wynona Ryders movies, shes absolutley stunning ^_^
So tonight im doing nothing...again..the past couple of weekends ive atleast had something to do.*sigh*
Last night was pretty bad at 8pm i found myself in my room doubled over in pain from my heart..again.Although this time it was alot worse then what im use to.I had my hand on my heart feeling it beat...it would beat really fast then stop and i get this awful pain in my chest..then it would beat fast again..then slow..then stop.It was really hard to breathe through most of it, i was gulping for air well bent over in pain.I couldnt move, Thats the second time in two nights, im going to the Doctors if it gets much worse..
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| 09:34am 04/06/2004 |
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Well i didnt sleep at all last night, i stayed up watching telly, chatting on msn and eatiing an assortmant of random junk.Once 7 am hit it was time for brekky and Full House, that show is just too damn cute.Then it was off for a dosage of domestication step 1- sort through random junk on the floor of my room 2- wash a large amount of dirty clothes (im still doing that now) 3- put clean sheets on my bed 4- wash the cat 5-errrm something...its only 9-36 am and im tired as fuck yet theres no fucking point in trying to sleep cause it aint gunna happen.
ta ta
p.s- i keep pinching myself in hope that i will wake up and relise this isnt my life.
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| 01:43am 01/06/2004 |
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mood: content music: The Last Day On Earth-Manson
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Why do i bother with this stupid journal that no one reads or gives to shits about, heh i dont know either..
Well anyway today was brilliant (LIE) i woke up at ten am jumped out of bed with a pain in my left arm and my vision was going blurry, so i swallowed some panadol, jumped back into bed, ran for the bathroom, threw up went back to bed, and slept until about 3pm, fucking migrains *curses*
So the rest of the day was basic, food shopping, cooking dinner..erm hot chips and tomatoe sauce..go the nutrition.Then after that i walked back down to coles at around 9pm for no particular reason but alone time.I miss my alone time as much as i miss me, i dont know where ive gone but if anyone sees miss sara roaming around tell her i miss her *sighs*
Tomorrow i have school, that sucks more then id like,but wednesdays a strike,..thursday is a shortened day and friday can get fudged.
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You are SPOOKY KID MANSON!! Your first album
Portriat of an American Family. You are just
starting out and tying to create and inovate
your music style and yourself. You're not the
Anti-Christ to be yet, but hey you have your
run ins anyway. You are my favvvooorite.
Which Marilyn Manson Era Are You?
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| 04:54pm 30/05/2004 |
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Well last night was wake the dead and i actually had a good night, i met a couple of people ive been talking to on msn.Maria seemed really nice but i didnt get to talk to her for very long *sighs* bit i did meet a few new people which is always exciting.Hopefully i'll see some of them again at Die Maschine, i am fascinated by this one guy, but *shrugs* might not ever see him again.
Steve ended up showing up and then about hal an hour after that kat left,leaving me with a bunch of random people, thats friendship for ya and i dont really care if your readin this kat..just know this..dont fucking bother coming next time if your going to bail on your friend *smirk* Oh and by the way everyone at the table thought steve was a dick, hows that make you feel?
uck! well next week is die Maschine hope to see some people there..
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| 11:48pm 28/05/2004 |
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Soo tomorrow i have to meet ashley and her friend in the city, the plan is i get on the same train as ashley in the morning *shivers* im really really shy about this one, perhaps its my lack of friends i have that are girls.So i im not entirely sure how to act with them...or something similar.
my mums coming up tomorrow to drop off some stuff, shes buying me these really nifty slipperish type bootie things..*grin*
Uck im tired i didnt sleep last night but i caught a few hours today but im still reaaaaally tired.
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Alphabet survey:
A - Act your age - Rarely.
B - Boyfriend - I wish
C - Chore you hate - Putting the clothes on the line
D - Dad's name - Peter
E - Essential make up item - Foundation..eyeliner..lipstick
F - Favorite actor - angelina jolie
G - Gold or silver - silver
H - Hometown - Sydney
I - Instruments you play - Pfft..does Vocal talent count?
J - Job title - Ass Clown
K - Kids - One day maybe..depending
L - Living arrangements - Two flatmates..two cats..and me
M - Mom's name - Gail
N - Number of people you've slept with - Huh! you fucking wish id give you that numkber dont you huh huh ;)
O - Overnight hospital stays - holy shit..i cant remember
P - Phobia - Cochroaches *shivers*
Q - Quote you like - "fuck you motherfucker"
R - Religious affiliation - confused
S - Siblings - brother-scott-30 sister-kelly-24
T - Time you wake up? school days:: 6-30 ..weekends:::When i feel like it
U - ugliest person in your life- Melissa *shivers*
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat? - Squash
W - Worst habit - ermm cutting..?
X - X-rays you've had - HAHHA arms..chest..ribs.
Y - Yummy food you make - ummm
Z - Zodiac Sign - virgo |
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| 04:05am 26/05/2004 |
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mood: depressed music: some song by eskimo joe "HELLO,HELLO OHHHH HELLO"
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well i have nothing to say today.Dull isnt it? Write now its 4 am i hesitatied writing in this hoping that something of interest would happen today ..but sadly it didnt.
Well im meeting Luke And Davey on thursday *horah* more people to hate me.But im going cause..well i got nothing better to do.
Today i have to go to my psych appointment OH JOY!
I spent my night wandering the streets stealing roses from peoples gardens,they smell pretty.there sitting in a vase on the coffee table, i hope it brightens someones day cause nothing seems to help mine.
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| 05:53pm 24/05/2004 |
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Well, today i planned to go to school but slept throuh my alarm and the several snooze thingys after that.But im going tomorrow i have to meet my mum at the Plaza to get some money so that i can go to my psych appointment on wednesday.It was originally last weds but thanks to the flu i didnt have to go.But its on again *sighs*.
Hmmm what else..? im trying to decide what to do with my next two weekends i either, go to wake the dead on saturday night with trina, or go to this dance/rave ice skating thing on friday night with tals, then meet up with some people in the city on saturday..then go to die maschine the following weekend. *bah* i dont think it matters yet as its only monday.
Ohh Rammstein just came on telly.MUCH DOOM!
anyfuck thats it from me bitches..
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| 04:28pm 23/05/2004 |
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So last night trina and i headed off to Scourge (about time i got my ass there)At first it was a little boring but then music picked up and some people headed to the floor.T'was quite good, i think next time we need to consume a lot of alcohol to make the night a lot better *laughs*
I also met Rob a guy whos been on my msn list for awhile he seems really nice, i didnt talk to him for that long but m'eh maybe next time.
Next saturday is Wake The Dead, i think im going..and possibly trina.Go back and do some more dancing,drinking and have a fucking good time.
Im so sick of everything i need something to get me the heck out of here even if it is for a few hours every now and then, atleast its something,. |
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| 02:16am 22/05/2004 |
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Oh gods! the boredom is so intense.I have no money and im curious as to how my self is going to survive the next week.I have school on monday *sighs*.Today is saturday i have nothing to do and no where to go,the excitement is unbearable.
Today my day was basic, i woke up..a trying task then did nothing else. I wander what will become of me.
I thought i had so much to write but when you have my life and do fuck all what the hell is there to write about.
tootles.
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